I said good bye to two of my angel armies, in the flesh, today.
Maybe it’s better to say, I will see them later. They are moving to another state for a job.
But, why does saying goodbye have to hurt so?
Why do loved ones have to move away?
I know they were meant to be in my story. And in a very BIG way.
God used them.
BUT, they were willing!
- I had prayed for years that a God fearing man would confront a man. And God brought the man.
- This man and woman were apart of my safety net.
- They held me up in prayer.
- They listened to me.
- They prayed with me.
- They were safe.
- They sprinkled out love: Fed me, gave me Kleenex for the tears, food for the strengthening, gift cards for gas to keep me coming and going.
- They sat beside me in church. That offered me strength and hope.
- They informed me of the access code to their garage. They told me many times I could come over anytime, day or night. Their home was a respite for me, free from toxicity, a safe place to stop, weep, or sit quietly on their porch and hear a U.S. flag flap. Or to help them in the watering of their pink hydrangea flowers or black eyed Susan’s. It gave me a sense of purpose. Being needed where there was order, stability, peace, and growth. It touched me. Refueled me. Helped me to view my life as upside down. It was, just that, my life. Elsewhere there was peace.
- They read hours of chuck-filled, pain-filled emails. Took many of my cell calls.
- They listened as anger flexed up and down with my questioning God, how much longer, and the mounting frustration of nothing changing for the good within the house on the hill.
- They empowered me, kept me in step, and kept me believing God was alive.
- They were my life-line to the outside world. Reality. This is crucial for women in abuse.
- 14. They were apart of my journey to expose deception and abuse.
- How can it not be hard to say goodbye?
Lives reach out, touch, and get involved in the messiness of one’s life. Forever, I will be grateful to God and to them. (THANK YOU, Lord!) “ There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven—
2 A time to give birth and a time to die;
A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal;
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search and a time to give up as lost;
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart and a time to sew together;
A time to be silent and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate;
A time for war and a time for peace.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Today was a time to say goodbye to two of God’s gifts nearby that helped changed my life for the better!