But Daniel purposed in his heart that he would not defile himself with the portion of the king’s meat, nor with the wine which he drank (Daniel 1:8a KJV)
I prayed a prayer in a Sunday morning ladies class that hung over my life for over a quarter of a century. Only God heard it. The teacher taught on Daniel and how he resolved in purposing in his heart ahead of time to stay true to his beliefs. It was a wise choice he made. She challenged us women likewise, to purpose in our heart ahead to stay true to God’s Word. Being an older and wiser woman, she knew that life could whip up storms and then spin our emotions. Women easily allow their feelings to twist and turn, which may run truth over and out. She allowed time in our class for reflection and a silent prayer.
I prayed, I purpose in my heart that I will obey truth no matter what storms enter my life. Being fresh out of college, naïve, in a brand new relationship with the man, Jesus, and coming from a safe home with fond family memories, one question did float across my mind, What could happen so bad that I would turn away from the Word?
Responsible is like my middle name. I craved a good life and desired God’s blessing on my life. I knew obedience was the key. My prayer was my seal between God and myself, while Jesus and the Holy Spirit listened in.
Fast-forward thirty years…
Why do I recall this one prayer after all these years? Because it was only God that equipped and empowered me to go to His Word and return day after day after day when it appeared that God was ignoring my prayers. The Holy Spirit hedged out my feelings and nudged me to the feeding trough of His Word to fortify me. Then I could obey, thus answering my prayer, “Apart from me you can do nothing” (John 15:5b, NASB).
A Growth Stretch-mark: Purpose ahead to stay true to the Truth.
Darlene Terrell Larson did not have enough strength to do this on her own. There were days, weeks, months, and years I desperately wanted to throw out the truth that God saw and cared, let alone the thought that He would actually turn my life around and do something good with the deep stretch marks of pain.
The Lord witnessed my daily confrontations…
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